God replies, ‘Do you really want Me?’
And straightaway in our prayers we find darkness and coldness, and the numbing loss of energy.
If we were speaking the truth, we go on praying in spite of it; if we were not, we stop. And if we go on praying, the darkness becomes not a hindrance but a help, for the measure by which God values our prayers is the amount of desire in them, and it shows much greater desire to pray in darkness than in the light.
For this reason it has been said that we walk faster on the Road to God in darkness than in light. If you persist in prayer through darkness, you will assuredly find yourself after the darkness has passed much nearer to God.”
R. Reginald Somerset Ward: His Life and Letters
A. R. Mowbray Co., Ltd
London, 1963, p. 141